Monday, December 15, 2008

So Hard To Say Goodbye....

SO, I haven't written in a long time and my sister has told me that I have to or she will delete me so here is the newest post... ha. I got into a car accident and wrecked my car a little over a month ago and it has been a difficult ride to say the least dealing with it. I just found out last week that it was officially totalled and had to get everything out of it today. It was a sad time and I decided that I am going to dedicate this post to Aicha.. that was her name.
Aicha was a very colorful car with a huge personality to say least. She was a little bit ghetto... you kind of had to help her roll up the passenger window and she was very picky about who she let into the back passenger door. If she liked you that day she would open and if she didn't good luck on getting in! :) This car was very special to me because it was my first car.. been through 7 years together and have had many many memories in her!
Through all this car stuff God has definetly taught me a lot. I have been reminded that material things are fleeting and Christ is always sufficient. God is so gracious in the way he shows us things about our hearts and how we don't rely on him but on ourselves. Today my mom said something that made me think a little.. (I was saying how I wish someone could have been there to go with me) she said sometimes we have to go and do things alone. At church yesterday Jonathan said that when we are sitting alone and wanting a significant other to be there and depressed that we don't have it Christ wants to be that for us so badly. I realized that I was trying to depend on others to get through it and not on Christ... I am slowly seeing and allowing my heart to be vulnerable to Christ and depending on him and not myself. Thank you God for your patience and grace.. I need it!
Ok well here are the last pictures of Aicha to say goodbye and thanks for 7 AMAZING years....

She got her guns up one last time! :( Wreck 'Em Tech...

3 comments:

Brittany said...

welcome back my friend! excellent post! i am glad that God is teaching you and growing you through all of this. i have lots to learn from it as well. love you dear- glad we got to talk this morning.

..may she RIP :0)

jordan said...

glad you're back!

David, Meghan, and Brady Azam. said...

Poor Aicha...she was a good car to you. I know you will never replace her in your heart...but, I promise it won't seem so weird after a while.